Sharks are my favorite animals. I've never found them scary (well... maybe Jaws). Rather, they are amazing, fascinating creatures. They have been around for millions of years, continually evolving and changing. And I'm just in awe. I'm not saying that I would want to meet a great white up-close and personal... but, at the same time, that would be awfully cool.- For 33 years, I never wore make-up (I was so ignorant, there's no doubt in my mind that I wouldn't have even been able to successfully put it on had I tried). But about 10 weeks into my pregnancy with the boy, I was feeling so ugly and horrible that I went out and spent $350 on facial cleansing products and make-up (all in one fell swoop from one department store counter), got my first manicure and pedicure, and my first brow wax. Wow! It was amazing. Now I really wonder how I survived for so long without beautification!
I am a stay at home mom to a wonderful and amazing little boy. Always, I feel blessed and grateful that I can be that for him. But sometimes, I really wish I was working and contributing financially to the household. Sometimes, I worry that I'm not good enough to be doing this whole at home mom thing, and that a daycare would offer more somehow (socialization, activities, variety). And sometimes, I just miss going to work each day and facing those kinds of challenges (as opposed to the challenges of a rampaging toddler).- When I was in junior high and high school, I was certain that I wanted to be a music teacher. I was completely immersed in music-- the epitome of a band geek. I played 5 instruments reasonably well (trumpet, alto and tenor saxophone, bass clarinet, bells), 2 very well (clarinet and piano), and 1 horribly (cello lessons just did not go well... I just have no coordination skills). But after my second year of college, I pretty much stopped playing altogether. I look back, and it seems so crazy that something that was such a huge part of my life for so long just kind of stopped.
- The music of Britney Spears makes me happy. And I am not ashamed of it.
- My guilty movie pleasure: disaster movies. I love them. If the world is in peril, I'm so there (and OMG-- have you seen the preview for 2012???). One of my favorite movies of all-time is Armageddon, and I am slightly ashamed of it. But there it is.
Hopefully tomorrow I'll have something crafty to share.
You are not alone in missing the challenges of the work environment. I am pretty sure other moms out there and me included feel the same way. I think kids stuff just does not challenge us. For instance, I get really bored doing stuff with my son sometimes and just wish I could be doing something more stimulating. But, I push through it for him. I am sure it will get better as they get older and more things arise that really will challenge us.
ReplyDeleteAnd I agree with #5 lol.
Very goooooood post...I would never have guessed any of tid bits about you...the movies, the sharks, the makeup. The stay at home thing is hard..but the fruits of it are so worth it and unfortunately sometimes, not seen until later in their life. I hope blogging will help and reading other SAHM blogs. Thanks, Robin,
ReplyDeletethat was great,,,well done.
After I saw Jaws I cannot go in the ocean. When I went to Hawaii I had a panic attack snorkeling. LOL!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing, Robin. I knew you liked sharks. I won't go in the ocean anymore since I saw Jaws on the big screen when I was teenager.
ReplyDeleteI used to wear makeup but then when I became a stay at home mom, I quit. Saved a lot of money that way.
You are the best thing for your boy. Don't feel like you are not doing a good job. I can tell you from experience that your son will become the man you want him to be because of your influence and not someone elses.
You should get those instruments and teach your son how to play them as he gets older.